Yesterday I experienced a slightly guided ecstatic dance, where
an entire roomful of people were brought within five minutes to
the kind of totally free and expressive dance state that's
normally only seen around 5 AM, when only the serious dancers
and hardcore trippers remain.
In the middle of it I realized something. I don't know what
it was yet, but it has to do with the Earth.
(See, there's no Earth in my chart. The most obvious usual
manifestation of this is that I don't know how to relate to
earthy type energies.)
Another data point: within the first 30 minutes at the Gathering
of the Tribes, somebody (who I had a pretty profound experience
with later on) asked me to go outside and find some items for
the earth altar. This is the second or third time that that's
happened to me; I always feel fairly lost.
End flashback effects and cut to: the Mojave desert, shortly
past sunrise. Dancing freaks abound. I went back to my van
(mmm, van) and changed into some new clothes: a kurta and a
pair of tencel pants, both in very deep reds. I'm not sure
why I bought them; perhaps I've been preparing for this for a
while.
I wandered out into the desert, about a hundred feet from the
main dance floor, and sat in the lotus position, still quite
altered but stable and in control.
Thoughts zoom through quickly. Personal integration, societal
evolution, four words rearranged, still the same quest.
Acting out of instinct, I put my hands flat down on the ground
(something I pretty much never do), and begin channeling reiki
energy, feeding it into the Earth.
After a few seconds, the Earth echoed that energy back to me,
deeper and more resonant and about three times stronger. I
was blown away, but I stuck with it as long as I could, giving
and receiving, loving the planet.
I don't yet have all of the answers I'm looking for, but you
know what? They're out there. We've got time.